Originally posted by lamakwoklee
[B]Sir,
I trusted to luck. We see the result of that! I asked for TCMA, but I got so much more. Now I know what to be wary of. Now I know what to accept, and what to reject. Better to be enlightened from the begining.
Eventually I’ll achieve my goals in the TCMA, and I’ll do it owing nothing to those who renegue on their words, and talk circles around their lack of integrity, by spouting fortune cookie philosophy.
LKL [/B]
I have a feeling that you are letting your hunger get the best of you. I am sorry to think this, and forgive me if I am wrong. But if I am right, please listen.
First, understand that your approach is abnormal to the most members of the system. Those that are fighters would think that you want to steal the secrets so that you can use them against them. Those that are into fighting will think you have not earned the right to learn them (this can be so extreme that some teachers have two versions of a form – one for demonstrations and the other is the original form).
Also, if you are not trained in the basics, or are extremely good and diversified in other similar kung fu styles, a VCD of the forms would be a waste of your time (if you really want to learn them).
I had a similar problem. I was after a document that my teacher told me about. It described most of the principles Ng Su Ching (Misspelling) used to describe white crane. I had hoped to get a copy and make an English translation public for all to see (I considered it sad that if you could not understand Chinese, 90% of the principles you would never get).
I found out that some one in CA (USA) had a copy – and it was even translated into English. This made me extremely happy because I just assume the guy would have shared my desire. So I thought he would just send it COD. But he refused to send it to me, because he did not know me personally and he considered the document a relic. Yes this made me a little sad, but I know that this is how people tend to be with things they value.
I also found a guy in the Philippines with an un-translated version, he sent it, but neither one of us could read it; and all the Chinese I asked could not translate it either (it is in an old form of Chinese). Now I understood why my instructor was not interested in the document and did not care to send it.
I approached the American again to see if he would change his mind. He “could not”. I had to accept this and move on. This took effort because anger and regret kept trying to hunt me.
A friend told me that I had no right to be anger, unless I believed others had no right to say “no” to me. I thought about this for a while. In Buddhism, this kind of thinking is a sin, a stain on the character.
Now, I also appreciate the man who said no, because he helped to expose a side of me I needed to work on. This is the essence of all Buddhist martial arts, including The Lions Roar. We are ruthless (with the self), unending in our attack (on mental stains), …, because Buddha nature is the only real goal to us.
i can do even better…here is his forum info…tho i think he got into it with a troll so gene chinjg put them on hiatus orsomething!?