different kinds of injuries.
I started out in martial arts late in life with one partially disabled knee and another physical problem which had all but crippled me. With gradual increases in training time and intensity, and modest aims, I made wonderful progress. I felt, and still do, that Kung Fu opens my potential.
My training will be changed by a recent knee injury because I won’t be able to participate to the same extent. Kicking is pretty much out, not that it figured heavily in my work. Frankly, this injury has pretty much taken the fun out of my life.
I injured the good knee and will be having surgery for ACL tear. MCL was mildly strained too. I suffered bone bruises. The rehab will consist of 3 months of physical therapy 3 times a week, with my Kung Fu moves incorporated into that therapy. The doc has something in mind. He wants me to do Kung Fu in a wading pool. He says if a fall in there, “that’s what’s known as swimming.” I don’t know what I am going to do after formal rehab. I think it will take some months to get back to anything resembling normal in terms of just walking around. My first priority will be to get into a moderate horse stance for my standing work, and to be able to assume other standard positions and moves, including cross stepping and turning.
The injury happened during an ill advised, advanced kick, which I was not in condition to do, and which I protested.
What did I learn? I learned to trust my instincts, to question when I felt something had gone sour. I learned that having a good nature offers no protection. If you live stupid, you’re going to get hurt, even if your heart is in the right place.
Always stand up for yourself, for what is right for you, for what is right and honest in your feelings and being. If a kick is no good for you and you know it and you know the teacher knows it, don’t just question it, Refuse! If you sense something is wrong, say so. Talk in circles if you have to, but don’t let it go.
And, to go further back in my martial arts life, beyond the current hurt (but to something that is remotely connected to it), to an injury of spirit and position. Never let someone accuse you of something you didn’t do, and get away with it, while assuming that another person will make things right, because maybe he can’t and your backing down just reinforced that helplessness… . Go to the proper authorities (not to a couple of friends who don’t know squat) and state your case. I was told last year by a professional that I probably would have won. In doing what was right for me, I would have done what was right for everyone.
From this I’ve learned that I am naive and trusting to a fault. I can’t understand what makes a person hold themselves or an ideal or a social structure above other people to the point that they will harbor malicious ill will, speak false words, or strike someone who gets in their way as one would kick down a door.
I’ve learned that timing is almost everything.
I have learned that an outsider is not safe in certain circles, but every wolf knows that.
I have learned that with all the work I’ve done over these years, I’m still no closer to resolving the issues which brought me to where I am today. I know more now and use it, am more compassionate, still trusting in my own goodness of heart. Yet, in the ways of the world, I am someone who needs helpers of influence. To have the courage to go it alone and to have the mindset to deal with unfamiliar ground (in terms of venue or people) are two different things.
Information and methods which are used according to aptitude and personal inclination too often pass for wisdom.
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