personal revelations in training? taking a break?

just recently I’ve been having various ‘insights’ into my training that have been taught to me but never made sense until they happened on their own

for instance:
in any bow stance the rear foot must be at 45 degrees - I used to consciously do this until it became second nature and it was unconscious. However, I’ve recently realised that I shouldn’t be turning my foot 45 degrees because the action of pushing through the ball of the foot naturally causes that to happen. There’s no need for any conscious or unconscious movement - the act of surging forwards turns me.

another example:
my instructor told me for months and months that the form is not as complex as it first seems - there are only so many ways you can move your body. Yet when I learned the form I learnt 108 postures - each different posture was completely different in my mind, I saw little or no common ground.

Yet with time the form has broken down constantly, every week something new occurs to me and I smile to myself in class about it. Movement from single whip into cloud hands is the same movement as from push into closing at the end of a section. The surge from one brush knee into the next is the same as that in cloud hands when you switch hands and squeeze outwards.

Is this something that happens to you guys? Would you notice if your teacher hadn’t prepared you for it? Does it ever stop or slow down?

final question - have any of you taken a break from training (say two to three weeks) because of fatigue? Just recently I was feeling mentally and physically tired after every session and decided to take a breather - I came back fresh but felt very rusty. However, I am now enjoying my training again. What’s your opinion on this - is it better to have a break or do you just persevere?

“one room, many keys”

I think I understand where you are coming from. However, most often I get tired of portions of my practice.

I currently practice taiji and a little bit of wushu. However, the wushu usually just leaves me feeling bad about both myself and martial arts. I’m pretty much decided on taking time off from wushu practice if not putting the “kabosh” on it all together.

The question of whether to persevere is dependent on your motivations and what is causing the fatigue. Sometimes a break is all that is needed. Plus, even a decision to quit can be later turned into a decision to make it a break instead.

… Perspective is everything

Sometimes its positive benefit to take a personal break form training. I took some time off and just did standing qigong and lots of yoga stretching and found when I cam back to circle walking a lot of the problems that where there before had worked themselves out all on there own. Plus I found out I really missed my studies and enjoy them even more now.