Hello.
I am in serious need of advice, and would appreciate any insight/input on my dilemna.
I am a 33 year old, happily married, father of 1 wonderful daughter. For 10+ years I have been a student of the Tao, and Taoism. I enjoy the philosophy, as it assists me in staying balanced during the chaos that can be ‘every day’ life. Over the past 10 years I have also picked up a serious interest in the Internal Arts, and have picked up books on Hsing-I, Emei BaGuaZhang, Chin Na, ChiGong, and not too mention alot of material on Chi.
This is my problem:
My interest in study the Internal Arts has lead me to seriously desire to train in Hsing-I and Ba-Gua. I want to train desperately, but…there are no instructors/teachers in my area. I have searched for a few years(…and searched, and searched), but being that I live in a smaller city, the closest teacher of these disciplines in 2+hours away. This driving distance is far too great for me to endure 2+ times a week and would take far too much time away from my family life (4 hour round trip drives …argh).
What options do I have?
Under my circumstances, would studying from books and videos be considered honorable or worthwhile? If so, any recommendations on authors/styles? From all that I have read and studied up until now, I do have a sincere appreciation for the detail that is involved in training in the Internal Arts, and a part of me thinks that self=study would be considered laughable.
..or do I …
Continue my study of the Tao and train in one of the Martial Arts forms that is available to me in my area. Currently (other than Karate), there is a local instructor who teaches Kuntao, Pumar Pencak Silat, and Kali. It may seem strange to consider training in a school other thatn Hsing-I or Bagua, but I do seriously appreciate the spiritual/physical bond that most Martial Arts offer. If I can’t train Hsing-I or Bagua, should I consider these arts? I realize that it is quite possible that I may achieve great satisfaction from one of these arts as well, and not having trained in Hsing-I/Bagua, I may just be ‘romanticising’(SP?) about these arts.
I am very open to input. Please help. I now love to study the Internal Chinese Arts as well as the Tao. What would you do if you were me? Self-study or open my mind to different styles.
Thank you in advance!
Steve Shaw
Fond du Lac, WI
"Honest people use no rhetoric;
Rhetoric is not honesty.
Enlightened people are not cultured;
Culture is not enlightenment.
Content people are not wealthy;
Wealth is not contentment.
So the sage does not serve himself;
The more he does for others, the more he is satisfied;
The more he gives, the more he receives.
Nature flourishes at the expense of no one;
So the sage benefits all men and contends with none."