I hear what you are saying.
I learned a lot from tournaments as a kid. How to win with grace and humility, how to loose and keep your chin up, see where I went wrong.
After getting into the southern arts, especially S. Mantis, my mind had changed a bit. I got out of tournaments for a while because I despised them, strongly dislikes the point sparring – the forms. Too many people eager to where the uniforms and represent everything about martial arts except its martial qualities.
I was fighting with some S. Mantis guys from NYC at this time, about 2 years ago and was almost constantly bruised. It was a strange time. Good for my fighting attitude but not my head space.
Then I got beat pretty definitely by a Hsing-I guy, an old student of my teacher. I saw internal’s potential. I realized there was nothing soft about it.
So now I;m here. Learning my teacher’s E-chun, a combination of his experinces with Ba Gua, Hsing-I and a few other arts I never heard of before.
I still cross hands with old friends now and again and cherish the opportunity. Most are hard core into S Mantis or Hung Gar/Wing Chun. I give as good as I get. And when I get rocked pretty good I’m stoked (forgive the surfer in me) – because I want to see how they were able to do it.
I’m still in this faze.
I do not want to go out and “officially” represent a my teacher’s school until I’ve done more testing. I don’t care about loosing for myself, I really don’t. One can’t go to battle and not expect a casualty here and there. Its just that I love my teacher’s method so much I want to wait until I can give it a fair representation.
So I’m just training, training, training. Hopefully by the end of summer I can start taisting the waters.
Nice to see someone from my generation has so much respect for their parents. Hopefully they see that.
Be well.
Ray